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TYNA I MISS YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!! WE NEED 2 HAVE TYNA AND BRITTANY TIME TOGETHER SOON!!!!!!!!!!

It sucks to live a life where you feel so small and everything around you is big. I have been through so much hell this month that its not even funny. Im goign through so much pain that I dont even know what to do. I feel a lot like Tyna did. It sucks! Nothing I do or say can bring back the person I miss the most. My pain is slowly making room for anger as I push the people who I am really close to away and I dont want that to happen. I migh be going away for a while because I am sick. it is hard to explain but if I go away then I want Jess and Tyna to know that I love you two girls more then anythign and will miss you.

Hey Tyna,

Im going to miss you tomorrow while you leave me all alone..all by my lonesome, no one to talk to in third. JK! I love you and cant wait to see you at the concert tomorrow night! School definitely wont be the same with out you there!

I miss you

                  
                                 By: Brittany Alexander (a.k.a Me)

I haven’t stopped thinking about the night you ran away
There were so many things that I never got to say.

I never told you that I loved you

And without you I wouldn’t know what to do.

Now I spend my days crying

Knowing that there is a part of me dying.

There is nothing that I wouldn’t do

For one more chance to see you.

Ashley for you I will search high and low

Because I’m truly determined to find you wherever you go

My heart is broken like a puzzle and you’re the missing piece

If you come home then this pain will cease

As the days pass by

I continue to wonder why?

Was life at home that bad you had to leave

While the rest of us are left here to grieve?

You left with out a trace

15 years of memories that cant be replaced

When I close my eyes I can see your face

But when I open my eyes the image of you is erased

You had a great life ahead

But you ran away instead.

There night not have been much that I could do

I just wish that I could have helped you.

Ashley I love and miss you

So if you didn’t know it then, well now you do

Wow life was really good for about three days then turned around and got bad again! I dont even know how I feel anymore. I mean I still like "jock" but right now he is confusing me. He tells me to text him but then he doesnt text me back! What since does that make! None at all!!! Tyna I totally feel your pain! Cookie dough and my bed plus a box of tissues are totally callin me right now!!! I am goign to start writing a song so once I get it done I will let you and only you read it!! Hopefully I will have it done by the end of the weekend! Its gonna be about everythign that I am feelign and going through right now with you know what!!! I so need Dillon to come and pick up the pieces to out me back together. As of right now I am actually considering moving to Vegas because any thing is better then here right now!

So guys are extremely confusing sometimes. There should be like a manual or something for every girl. It would make life so much easier wouldn't it! I like this one guy "jock" (not his real name just a nick name) but any ways he tells me he likes me all the time when we text. then he tells me that I am beautiful and that my eyes are gorgeous. But everytime he is with his friend he gets all quiet and stuff. Like today I waved to him after school and he waved for me to go over. SO I go over there and give him a hug and wait for him to talk to me since he called me over..yet nothing came out of his mouth until I asked him if he was okay. I mean thats really wierd...yeah your friend that I had a past with was there but he shouldnt have called me over there to be quiet. Aww it drives me crazy. Im not dating him and Im not in love with him... but this song by the Veronicas  shows how I feel about him more and more each day that we talk....
"Speechless"

Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you

You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby

You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you